Â»Âº//lost in this world of reality

Monday, August 09, 2004

all ended. it's all gone by now..

when it did, i just went on to drink. but it's no more than a mere drink.

no kick. no feel.

looked at myself through the mirror. stared. then wonder how i got myself into such a mess.

wonder how i screwed myself up so much.

how many times have i held on to it and kept my impulse under lock and key.

all at the wrong time did i let it loose. and in the wrong moment have i kept it..

wont it be all right if i had just shut what i felt out and let it pass.. and now we'd still be great buds..

wont it be even better if i just asked her out without a hesitation or even a single fear of rejection..

wont it be great if only i have a more sociable personailty..

at least that way she wont be doing all the talking all the time. and at least i could appear more confident and be it.

dont know lah..

wished i have a few more drinks beside me now..

lost at|11:15 PM|

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